The girl next door

kell_bell42 @ 2009-01-21T11:20:00

2009-01-21T18:24:29Z

I got a new journal...the user name is km00.

Figured it was time to start a new one as I am trying to start a new life too.

If you're on my friends list I probably friended you on that one, just because I don't know who still reads this anyways, and I also haven't really kept track of who is who as far as user names.

It's going to be a friends-locked journal, so if I didn't friend you and you actually care, go ahead and friend me.

The end.

kell_bell42 @ 2006-12-26T21:52:00

2006-12-27T02:50:21Z

I finally got a Facebook.

You should find me and friend me. Even if I don't really like you. Or vice versa.

kell_bell42 @ 2006-12-25T23:13:00

2006-12-26T04:15:39Z

Yay Merry Christmas and such!

I got a lot, lot, lot of giftcards/money and also:
-The Walk the Line Soundtrack (I'm officially a dork)
-A really super comfy blue butterfly chair
-Some books
-Makeup
-A gorgeous pearl bracelet
-A slightly attractive black sweater, which is actually suprising because my fashoined-challengd aunt who has bought me several tragic outfits got it for me
-An iPOd!!! HAHAHA YES!!!

I <3 the Holidays

I also <3 Holiday Eggnog, no seriously, that stuff sneaks up on you

kell_bell42 @ 2006-12-18T16:40:00

2006-12-18T21:41:11Z

I got into Hope!!!

kell_bell42 @ 2006-11-30T16:11:00

2006-11-30T20:11:27Z

I need two contrasting monologues for college theatre audtions.
Suggestions? (please!!!)

I'm not trying to major in theatre, just some of the smaller schools have theatre scholarship money even if you're not a major as long as you participate in theatre.

I should also probably start writing my oratory speech for forensics team auditions.
I've tried on several occasions but cannot commit to a topic.

In other news,
I'm officially single! Not that I really considered myself taken, it's just that now it's official.
Yay!

kell_bell42 @ 2006-11-18T18:48:00

2006-11-18T22:48:31Z

I got 2nd at O.I. in Poetry!

Yay for me!

kell_bell42 @ 2006-11-13T18:25:00

2006-11-13T22:25:37Z

I got into Loyola!!! (the Chicago one)
And I got a random $9,000 dollar scholarship (36,000 for four years) which basically covers room and a little bit of board cost, damn.
I just hope I get a really amazing grant or something cause I really, really, really would love to go to college in Chicago.

Oh and also in at Western and Grand Valley, but not thats not as cool as the Loyola thing.

So I think I just have to hear from De Paul and Hope.

*crosses fingers*

kell_bell42 @ 2006-10-26T18:23:00

2006-10-26T22:37:40Z

I am frusterated with my life.
Because:
1) AP Bio is a bitch and then you die.
2) Same goes for Honors Pre-Calc.
3) I would love more than anything to apply to Wellesley but theres really no point seeing I've only taken three years of math and they require four
4) My dog died
5) My stomach hurts
6) I have a headache because I'm trying to cut back on caffiene (ie was consuming like 1000 mg per day and thats bad) and am experiencing major withdrawl
7)Ed and I never broke up before he went to college. But he hasn't called me since September. I almost am feeling like we are supposed to be seeing other people but I just missed the memo.
8) My OI piece blows and I don't know how to fix it

She sits, perched on the musty blue couch,
that fills a small space in her living room apartment.
Opens an album,
Blows aside the layers of dust,
recording the years gone by.
Gazes at a page,
And then another.

At first glace,
A young girl,
Baby fat still occupying,
the developing curves of her body.
She is grinning widely,
Her arms wrapped around a boy,
Smiling as well.

Second page,
the photos begin to change.
The glowing face once pictured,
Disappears replaced by a graying complexion,
A tightening of the skin,
Eyes that are no longer radiant.

"I haven't thought of a thought-provoking yet simple title yet" By Kelly McCalpin

She is transported back to a time,
A time in her life,
When happiness was measured out in inches.
Beauty weighed out,
Ten times a day.

She would stand for hours at the mirror,
Staring intently at her reflection,
Watching it day by day,
Frusterated by the image berfore her,
And the changes she alone failed to see.

Her friends began to worry,
the more they prodded her,
the harder she pushed them away.
Lonliness became a trend,
While they went out for the night,
She stayed in,
Too scared to risk everything she had worked for.

She wasted away her days,
Sleeping nights in endless hunger,
Dreaming of all the forbidden elements of her life.
Visions of pizza, not suger plum fairies,
danced before her eyes.
She ate everything before her,
gorging until every last grumb had been greedily licked.
She woke in frantic tears,
running her anxious hands over her still concave abdomen.
Relief flooding as she realized it was just a dream.
It was only a dream.

She would rise in the morning,
Calculate carefully,
Plan her day according to what she would consume.
Often trudging into school late.
Because nothing ever looked right,
or because she had fallen asleep in the shower.

Everywhere she went she saw them stare,
yet she was unable to see what they did.
Tehy told her she was out of control,
She needed help.
But the voice in her head would not subside.
"They're just jealous,
They could never understand."

And I don't have an ending.

Oh and yes I do know its a terribly cliche piece.

And no I don't know how to fix it.

I apologize for my emo-ness.

kell_bell42 @ 2006-10-19T20:49:00

2006-10-19T20:50:17Z

I got into MSU!

Yay!

I probably won't go there but still...Yay!

kell_bell42 @ 2006-10-01T09:50:00

2006-10-01T13:51:18Z

I got an 88% on my AP Bio test! That makes me smile cause I thought I failed.

Hooray!

Oh btw who knew Grand Valley University was so pretty?

And affordable. Sort of.

College App Update:
Hope-Applied
Loyola-Applied
Western-Applied...why would I do that?
State-Applied
Grand Valley-Applied

I'm starting to chicken out on the whole applying to Wellesley thing...I really want to go there but even if I get in by some miracle there's no way I can go there because its effing expensive.

Same deal with Smith College.

And Lake Forest College.

kell_bell42 @ 2006-09-20T18:17:00

2006-09-20T22:27:59Z

I need to stop eating so goddamn much or I'm going to puff up like the pillsbury dough boy. And that will not be attractive.

I also need to stop being so entirely lazy. Because I'm going to kill my GPA if I don't stop procrasting/staying up till four in the morning doing last minute test cramming.

kell_bell42 @ 2006-09-17T15:54:00

2006-09-17T20:00:24Z

I went to tiki bob's and tonic last night.

My shirt, rather black piece of cloth I was wearing broke when I was dancing with this one really crazy guy who kept lifting me up.

But it was all good cause it didn't make much of a difference, my boobs were totally hanging out either way.

I think I'm really going to like this whole clubbing deal.

kell_bell42 @ 2006-09-14T20:45:00

2006-09-15T00:53:53Z

Top reason why I hate fall: Homecoming

Not the game, thats okay.

Assembly sucks because I have to cheer, but I get through it.

The dance:
HATE
HATE
HATE it

I want to go because it's my senior year.
But I don't really feel like going single.
And the whole date thing just gets messy because even when I take a guy as "just a friend" he ends up hitting on me and I get annoyed.

You know what I also hate?

People who get asked all cute-ly to school dances.
You suck.

kell_bell42 @ 2006-09-09T16:06:00

2006-09-09T20:16:36Z

I finished my first college application for Loyola (the chicago one)!!!!!

YAY!!! YAY!!! YAY!!!

Pretty short-lived though considering all the other shit I need to do...

Hope, Lake Forest and Wellesley are all done I just need essays.

"Just" is probably not the best word to stick in there.

And then I still need to choose from Oakland U, MSU, Grand Valley and Western because my mom's making me apply to at least one.

I would love to apply to like Sarah Lawrence, New College of Florida, Pepperdine or something but there is simply not enough application money to go around plus let's face it: I'm lazy.

Oh yeah and then theres all that AP Psych and Bio reading I have to do sometime.

kell_bell42 @ 2006-09-05T20:01:00

2006-09-06T00:10:17Z

First day of school was a rude awakening...but overall not bad.

btw school starts at 7:25-when did this happen?

i'm actually pretty happy with my classes/teachers

and open lunch kicks major booty

I went to the gas station and got a diet rockstar energy drink and sugarfree red bull

caffiene is so good :-)

I may attempt to go home, make lunch, and come back tomorrow...just to see if the timing works.

kell_bell42 @ 2006-09-02T16:20:00

2006-09-02T20:25:14Z

I'm an adult!!!

(kind of)

First thing I did today: bought a lotterey ticket.

Heck yes.

kell_bell42 @ 2006-08-29T08:34:00

2006-08-29T12:42:30Z

I'm not a fan of this whole people going away to college thing.

It kind of sucks majorly.

Like a lot.

.......

My livejournal barely ever works so I'm contemplating getting a facebook.

.......

I still need to read Othello and Frankenstien before school starts.

Yikes.

kell_bell42 @ 2006-08-27T10:02:00

2006-08-27T14:09:24Z

One week till I'm an adult.

Yay!

I'm totally going to lover's lane.

I need to find someone to go clubbing but everyone 18 or older is gone/leaving.

wtf mate.

kell_bell42 @ 2006-08-16T11:07:00

2006-08-16T15:15:44Z

schedule:

1)British lit-Feigenson
2)AP Bio-Kwasny
3)Honors pre-calc-Shelly
4)AP Psychology-Johnston
5)Forensics-Harsh
6)Chambers-Snyder
7)Creative Writing-Graney ???

It also says "seminar"-Laliberte...I'm assuming thats that study hall thingie we're having this year?

Yay senior-ness!!!

kell_bell42 @ 2006-07-31T20:38:00

2006-07-31T20:39:48Z

My mom just told me she had to cancel our fitness membership.

I am going to die.

Wait no, I am going to get fat and die.

kell_bell42 @ 2006-07-20T07:51:00

2006-07-20T11:56:30Z

Does anyone know how I would go about attempting to get a waiver for college application fees?

kell_bell42 @ 2006-07-12T20:32:00

2006-07-13T00:37:48Z

I got a new cell phone!!!

Yay!!!

It's the same number as my old one (821-2207)

but I losted my sim card so I don't have anyone's number

so just call me or leave your number or whatnot

kell_bell42 @ 2006-06-20T07:25:00

2006-06-20T11:29:30Z

I am the happiest person in the world right now.

I did it. I moved my ACT score up to a 30.

YAY!!!!!

And I am officially a dork for getting up at 7 freaking 30 in the morning to check that.

kell_bell42 @ 2006-06-14T20:35:00

2006-06-15T00:42:11Z

Prom Pictures!

Okay so I only have two because my parents have never really been great photographers...but I think Ed's mom has more so I gotta try to get my hands on those.

note the dress clinging (not very well I may add) to my boobs with double sided tape.

So I officially cannot smile.

kell_bell42 @ 2006-06-04T21:29:00

2006-06-05T01:34:13Z

Prom:

probably the most fun I've had at a dance.

I think who you're with really helps.

Pictures coming soon.